Kat Melocoton | Illustrations by Precious Ugbo

“I don’t like seeing the dark circles under my eyes.
I hate my damaged hair.
I have pimples all over my body and I can’t face people. I don’t have the confidence…
I don’t understand why it is too hard to lose weight!
Why can’t I be beautiful?”

“Something is wrong with me!” I said while looking at the mirror.

These were my thoughts six years ago. Insecurities almost ruin my life that I don’t even want to go out of my room. My flawed body made me feel ashamed for who I am. It just reminds me that I am an unlovely person, that I cannot be beautiful.

Before I came to know Jesus Christ, I spent my life hiding on a mask through thick makeups, wigs and beauty products thinking that by doing so, people wouldn’t recognize my imperfections, hence I can finally feel accepted.

People tell us that we should be proud of who we are. But living in a world that physical imperfections signify ugliness, we find it hard to believe that it would be better to show off those unappealing part of us. But if you think you are defected, unaccepted, flawed or damaged, I believe you are reading this not just by chance. In the Bible, there’s this one person who describes how wonderful God made him:

“Oh yes, you shaped me first inside, then out; you formed me in my mother’s womb. I thank you, High God — you’re breathtaking! Body and soul, I am marvelously made! I worship in adoration — what a creation!” (Psalm 139:13-14 MSG)

You are marvelously made. God uniquely created you. He specified every single detail of your body. He chose what will be the color of your hair and your skin. The way you look is not just by accident. Someone decided what will be your height, weight and even your race — your Creator. You are who you are for a reason. The Lord sculpted you the way He wanted it. He planned every part of you and your life for a purpose.


Real beauty comes from Jesus.


Your worth can’t be defined by makeups, adorning of hair, pieces of jewelry or the clothes you wear. Do you know where the real beauty comes from?

“But he was pierced for our transgressions; he was crushed for our iniquities; upon him was the chastisement that brought us peace, and with his wounds we are healed.” (Isaiah 53:5 ESV)

Real beauty is found in the Gospel when Jesus Christ died for you more than 2,000 years ago. He carried our pain — our ugliness, and all the wounds that are caused by our insecurities through His bruises so that we can be healed. By His blood, He cut our blemishes, flaws, and sins so that we can be seen perfectly despite our imperfections.


A woman who fears the Lord is to be admired.


This world tells you that you will only be accepted as you conformed to the patterns of this world. But that’s the biggest lie I would ever know. When you discover who you are in Christ, the tensions of this world can’t dictate who you are. What you have here on earth are just temporary. Your glamour can be misleading and the beauty you have will fade soon. But let me tell you, the woman to be admired is the woman who lives in the fear of God.


You are fearfully and wonderfully made.


Six years ago, I always say, “If I only had the chance to change the way I look, I already did.” But now that I discovered how precious I am in Christ, I regret what I said before. I started appreciating the way how the Lord sculpted me. I am who I am for a purpose. And no amount of makeups, beauty products or even surgeries can ever measure how well I am shaped by my Creator.

If you are downhearted with how you look, start surrendering your heart and body to God. Believe that He knows you better than anyone else. And you can be secure that you are perfectly fashioned by your Creator because He made you in His own likeness — fearfully and wonderfully. What a beautiful creation indeed!

I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. — (Psalm 139:14 ESV)

To the beautiful girl or lady reading this, know that God made you beautiful.
You are beautiful!
You are valued.
You are chosen.
You are redeemed.
You are God’s wonderful daughter.

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P.S. Thank you so much, Precious for letting me use your amazing artwork for this blog!💚 For more Illustrations made by iPreciously, please visit www.preciouslyxoxoblog.wordpress.com


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PUBLISHED BY KAT MELOCOTON

Katrina is an amateur blogger and writer from Philippines who loves coffee. She writes about her faith and journey in aiming a Christ-centered life. Join her every step to her faith and see them shine before you. View all posts by Kat Melocoton

23 thoughts on “Something’s Wrong with Me

  1. Kat, That was beautiful! Thank you for sharing this. I am certain there are many people who can relate to what you just shared here. We all do need to see ourselves in Christ Jesus as beautifully made by him. And, we should endeavor, in his strength within us, to be the beautiful people he created us to be and not try to compare ourselves to others or try to be like who we think other people think we ought to be. For, he made us all different on purpose, that we might each fufill the unique place within his body which were designed just for us.

    1. Very well said, my friend! All of the things you’ve said are true. When we compare ourselves to others, or if we look for confidence in ourselves, we’ll be found insecure and confuse. The Bible said, there are many parts with different functions and one body, which is Jesus. That’s why we are designed in unique way for God’s own purpose. The only time we can see the beauty within us is when we focus in Jesus.

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